You still make me nervous....

Downtown Owl

"It was all (of course) too predictable to believe. Which is how life always is. In baseball and sex, cliches are usually true: Pitching beats hitting, and people always want to be loved by anyone who doesn't seem to care."

Happy Birthday Girl!

I cant believe you'll sit through a movie with me, knowing that I am going to constantly bump your elbow and point out the little things.
Good luck with Josh.

Remember not to cross your legs,

And pray to God every night before you go to sleep.

Happy Birthday Papa, you're missed.

I hope my mom's alright.

Just a little something for you all.
Tonight reminded me how much I kind of really like pasta. And hearing about ______'s sexcapades. We never did play tag or spoons or ninja.

Today was cute.
I kind of really liked Wahoo's.
I love Diana.

Plus Kelsea and her boy Jimmy.

OhNgo

Here's to you, my friend.

Stuffy

All the movies I rented where copy right protected. What is this world coming to? In between books. Reading The Story of O, Torn Skirt, and Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now. Spent the morning reading while watching The Little Vampire, and explaining to Graham why witches aren't real. Trying to find Cloe a ladybug and drinking cereal milk. Eating an onion bagel that reminded me of your breath. Spent the afternoon watching Coraline, again. Slurping melted ice cream and saying goodbye. Trying not to think. Spent tonight watching Raise Your Voice with Summer. Icing her swollen ankle and my pulled muscle. Rubbing Neosporin on my gangly knees. Explaining why we don't have an air conditioner. Cutting out the word 'NEON' about ten hundred times for her science project. Wishing my parents where religious for numerous reasons. Trying to figure out your drunken words. Driving with Patti with all four windows rolled down, trying not to laugh while she sang "Give it to me baby, (uh huh, uh huh) ".

Bye Bye Edie.

And my breath catches in my throat..

At the end of the day I don't even feel like we've lost.
And as the season comes to a close I feel sad. But, it's a good kind of sad.

Three cheers for beautiful people,


*When I talk to you on the phone I stop to let you, "Uh Huh" and "Yeah" but all I hear is you chewing with your mouth open, or talking to your bird.
*I feel stupid when I see how vulnerable I made myself. One day someone you love is going to break you. I hope you're ready. Everyone's waiting.
*When I'm talking to you I feel like it's a privilege. I wish that I were enough. You've always been enough, sadly. As long as I have you, even as a distance, I'll be ok. I will always be here, with open arms.
*Part of me hates you for loving me. I didn't deserve anything you ever did for me. I didn't deserve your apologies, or your forgiveness. I let you walk away that night, because it was the best thing to do. I couldn't stand making you cry, I couldn't stand making you sick. I hope the best for you, because you, you deserve the best. Please believe that things are good with me, and even when there not, they will be soon enough.
*Thanks for being honest. Even if it was harsh. Even if it did hurt my feelings.


We've always been the good looking team..

Made lunch for you,

For me,

New York is dirty.

I hate technology

I'd have to say you put up a good front. Today, when I looked into your face your eyes where sad. You're smart, and you know how to carry yourself. So good for you. You don't need me, you never did.

If only you knew.

Each time she sent you to the bathroom crying, I didn't laugh in your face. I didn't roll my eyes when you said "She's a bitch." I nodded my head and said "I know." as convincingly as I could. You've stopped caring about what I had to say. Pretty soon you're advice was meaningless. You talked without thinking. You said things that you shouldn't of said. I've always loved you. I know you probably like him. And no he doesn't read your blogs, he told me.

I've known.

Day with a Jew