THIS MOVIE WILL BREAK YOUR HEART.

THE BEST KIND OF LOVE IS WHEN YOU HAVE NO EXPECTATIONS AT ALL.

Always forgetting to forget you

You're a dirty bastard. I miss you so bad. But I dont need you, so goodbye.

LC - i think it's more like purses actually. you're always gonna have that one boy that your always comfortable with and you always kinda like, right? that's your purse that you wear everywhere, right? then you have a gorgeous bag that you want everyone to see you with.
JEN - yeah but the gorgeous bag is usually an asshole.
LC - or costs a lot of money. then you have those other purses that you really like, but you don't really want to be seen with.

Back from San Diego

Graham is a total bad ass. He taught me how to skate the half pipe. Then he decided I wasn't cool if I didnt drop in. Giving into the taunts of a six year old...I dropped in. I wasn't very successful. He told me I wouldn't fall if I did it again. I did it again. My leg started bleeding, and I decided that skateboarding professionally is not in the cards for me. That, and Grahams a liar.

In hopes of getting a nice tan,
I currently look like a

Heading out to Lucy's. She keeps hating on my man. Who doesn't want to dry hump Michael Cera?

You, Giving Up

Say were in the situation that you called. We went out to eat, we talked. We laughed and we cried. Maybe things changed. But were not in that situation. You didnt call, therefore we didnt talk. We didnt laugh or cry. Things are the same. Things will always be the same.

CK

You're exactly what I want.
Road Trip to New Jersey as soon as possible.
Fuck California and the shady people who live here.

'CRAZY ISN'T BEING BROKEN OR SWALLOWING A DARK SECRET, IT'S YOU, OR ME AMPLIFIED. IF YOU EVER TOLD A LIE AND ENJOYED IT. IF YOU EVER WISHED YOU COULD BE A CHILD FOREVER.'

Do It Like This

You hide your disappointment. You laugh at her jokes even if you dont think their funny. Your friendship is phony, you are phony. You will always be number two, and that fucking kills you.

"Man you're really drinking the haterade today."

Recently joined Interpals online, Im guessing I set myself up for disappointment. Lucy and I are currently bad mouthing every stupid motherfucker's profile we see. And saying the same things at the same time is becoming a little creepy...

I'm going to miss this fellow more than Michael.

Urban Outfitters sale, way sick.


I click the thumbnail. And I sigh the biggest sigh. You make me melt.

Asta La Vista California!

Heading out to LAX, say a prayer for me.
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Saw a handsome black man on the shuttle, I thought it was Kanye.
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Cute college student, sitting across from me in terminal. He has a contagious laugh. I'm laughing behind my hands so he wont notice. He noticed.
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Landed around four thirty. I need a nap.
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Dinner with family. Bread and Butter, Strawberry Mandarin Salad, Eight oz. Steak, Mashed Potatoes. Strawberry Cheesecake.

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Bed to myself. Mom's snoring in the other one, I love her.

Day In Fragments

Woke up. Drank a Pepsi. Sat on couch by myself. Watched half of some French movie. Kept having to rewind because I was obsessively filing my nails while trying to read subtitles. Called Brianne. Went to the Beach. Got lots of sand in my crotch. Ate Veggie Chips. Came home. Biked to Itzels. Her Ma fixed my dress. Youtubed videos on Six Flag rides. Declined Invite. Drank another Pepsi. Biked home. Surfed the Web. Jaynee called. Drank another Pepsi. Finished the other half of the movie.

You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
Im not sorry I met you
Im not sorry

"There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but its not giving up it's realizing that you don't need certain people and the shit they bring."

Incomplete Sentences

Falling down stairs. Swimming late with Jaynee. Observing. Being embarrassed. Talking about so and so less and less. Laughing. Falling asleep.
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Back from Field Hockey practice. Sticky. Tired.
Bathing suit came in the mail.
Battery drained.
Picking up Korean later.

Yum

Pictures Later

Thrifting with Nancy and Jaynee Tuesday night. I guess you could call it thrifting...
AA Rummage Sale
American Vintage
Forever 21

We all where pleased with our purchases! Especially Nancy with her 2$ beanie.

I like knowing that I am going to see you twice a week. And you'll see me. And I'll feel your eyes on me. But I wont look. I'll know it's you. And I'll walk by. And you will have no idea that the whole thing is a front. Because I still care. Even though you dont.

Lucy Ngo, I am proud of you.

To someone else: You are a fucking dumb whore.

The only reason I am not sad everyday is because I think about all of the possibilities. What I could do. What you could do. What we could do.

I've never laughed so hard in my life.